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Name: Wendy/Emily
Country: United States
State: West Virginia
Metro: Parkersburg
Birthday: 7/9/1984
Gender: Female


Expertise: My expertise is in managing to confuse myself in nearly ever aspect of human life. I dare you to try and top that one. And I like reading...a lot.
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Entertainment


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Saturday, December 27, 2008

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Monday, December 01, 2008

Currently
White Christmas
By Bing Crosby
White Christmas
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Not again.

Well, once again my church doesn't know how to handle anything. I thought we had gotten to the point where we could be normal and Christen at the same time, but apparently not.

Recently our sermons have been about boundaries. Alright, fine, we do need to have boundaries as Christens or what makes us different? OKay, I can see that and I have a lot of boundaries in my life; however, this is going too far. In every sermon lately there have been mentions of 'blogging' and 'the myspace' and 'the facebook' as if it were some malicious monster waiting and ready to snatch our salvation right out from under our noses. Blogging is self-centered and mean, myspace is---well, they don't really know because they don't really know what is it. The same goes for facebook, they don't really know, but since someone at a sister church said it was bad--it's bad.

They think that it's as simple as that; says it's bad from the pulpit and the rest will fall into place. They said something about texting but that was only during church which I don't do or approve anyway.

What I'm worried about happening is that Mom and Dad will feel super bad about this things ( this is already happening really) and begin to forbid them. Mom and Dad don't know a thing about these sites and so feel free to make us feel badly about them. Mom and Dad also have a bad habit of feeling convicted and translating that to us children. They don't like to feel bad so they transfer the feelings to us so they feel like good parents. Or something like that. See, instead of trying to moderate or control things ( like they should) Mom and Dad just want to get rid of them all together. If it's not there --there's no work to do. Also there is no room for the older children and I to be trusted to moderate ourselves.

I'm just extremely tired of this pattern. They feel convicted by a sermon, come down hard on us for a few months or weeks and they lack off because they don't actually feel that way. If we follow the same course that's fine until they hear another convicting sermon. It's an endless cycle of wishy-washy Christanity. Not to mention that no one is happy about any of this while it happens. It's not as if they ever say, "You can do this and this." it's just a lot of don't.

It's gotten to the point that I feel we're supposed to be afraid of the world and live in fear of what thing might lure us to be worldly. I can't have confidence in my parent's faith because they seem to doubt its strength themselves.

But I guess I shouldn't say that, it's worldly.


Thursday, October 09, 2008

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David Archuleta
By David Archuleta
Crush
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I'm trying to write a poem

I'm trying to write a poem about the moment when people realized they loved the person they married/and or dating seriously. I'm attempting to gather this information from real life people and not make stuff up. Love poetry is the hardest to write without sounding corny and thus, I wish to use real life.

If you want to share the moment when you realized it, or the thing the person said or did. Whatever it was, I'd love to know. I will send anyone a copy who contributed.

 


Monday, September 29, 2008

Currently Listening
Godspell: Original Motion Picture Soundtrack
By Stephen Schwartz
Day by Day
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Leaving the crazy--I mean cozy nest.

My parents are crazy.

I love them because they’re my parents and they’ve taken care of me for years without asking for a thing back, but a line has got to be drawn. They finally asked for something back and this time it’s my freedom to be an adult.

Apparently (no pun intended) they believe that because they let their parents run over them as young adults I should be just as willing. Not only that, but that I should be glad for this to happen.  The fact that I am a 24 year old woman has no effect whatever on how they think I should behave toward them. If I want to live in their house, their rules—regardless of how stupid and out-dated they are.

I’m not a bad daughter; I don’t drink, smoke or have sex. I do the laundry and clean my room, get good grades. When I have time, I make cookies. I am the kind of daughter that troves of people would want. But my parents? Not so much.

They have a new fire in their belly to reform the family. Top of the to-do list is: Regain authority. This means that if they make a decision regardless of how I feel I must follow it to the letter or I am being a rebellious daughter. I cannot possibly be a Godly woman and not obey every weird rule they decide to create.

They’re against blogging (it’s an out pouring of selfishness) Facebook and Myspace (God knows who you might meet on there. Such as people who left our weird church) and TV (the beast, as Dad now calls it.) We don’t even have cable or get real TV of any kind and he doesn’t like it.

If things continue to go downhill I will have to leave the house—as much for peace with the family as for Mom and Dad to realize how much they might be going overboard.

I love God, and I want a Godly life; I just don’t see the way to that is through the endless amount of rules that our church requires. If I would leave they would see it as an out-pouring of rebellion and my desire to live a self-indulgent life of sin. I wouldn’t change the way I dress or anything, but it probably wouldn’t matter.

Am I going crazy or something? I just want to live a normal life.

 


Thursday, July 31, 2008

Currently Listening
Dusk and Summer
By Dashboard Confessional
Stolen
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Cha-Cha-cha changes!

I hardly know where to start with this journal.
So much has changed over the past few months that I don’t even know where to start. But I’ve found out yesterday that I will be able to graduate next year. Not only that, but I might be able to get a job that would allow me to get a car and move out of the house. Let me take a breath.


Okay.


Now, I said say first that I decided to change my major from Education to an RBA. I was never fully committed to the Education program and I never really wanted to become an elementary school teacher. I love little kids but not in that environment. The RBA allows me to take the classes I wish to take and still focus on literature would allows me to go to grad school in the future if I should so wish to do so. I am very happy with this choice.


Next, I am applying for a job at Public Debt. I don’t know if I will get the job but the outlook is good. I know people who work there; I have (according to my boss and one of my teachers) a strong resume. And because it is a student job I have a good chance at it. I would love to get the job but I would be very nervous too because I’ve never had a ‘real’ job before. We shall see what we shall see.


Also, the issue of getting a car and moving out.—


A car is a must for anyone so I don’t feel the need to spell out the reasons why I need one. I want to move out for several reasons. I think that while I am at home I will never truly grow up. What I mean is that I am too prone to being lazy and depending on my folks for everything. It’s unfair at my age to expect them to house me for the rest of my life. I also have my own pride and don’t want to be a bum living with her parents.


Another reason is because my parents and I have some differing views and they can cause tension in the home as well. Since I live with my folks I don’t feel that it is right to ask for my own way. Therefore, I must have a place of my own and it won’t be such an issue. I would like to get a place with a girlfriend though so I won’t be alone (I’m so used to a big family) and so I won’t bear the burden of the rent on my own.


I want it to be with someone with whom I share common interests and friends. That way we won’t have a lot of conflicts. I don’t think there would be little conflict, there’s always going to be something to worry about…but I don’t think there will be huge problems.


But for right now I am focused on getting the job and a car. I’m not fussy car-wise something reliable that gets me from point A to point B without guzzling gas. And working air that is a must. But this semester I am just going to go through my classes, be in James and the Giant Peach (I want to be Centipede so badly!) and direct the play “The Unexpected Guest” with Katie. It will be a full production too.

I’m so busy I don’t know where to look but I am very, very happy.




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